Blog: The Brain That Won’t Sit Still

At the beginning of the year, I made a commitment to write 52 blog posts. I even made a schedule with titles for each one.
And then I had the flu.
And life around me was too chaotic for my brain to even want to pretend to process.
It is now March, and not including this one, I’ve written a total of three blog posts.
I’ve been distracted both at work and at home. I feel like I need just an extra day to do something creative—or at least, a day for myself. After teaching all week, I usually spend Saturdays curled up on the couch, moving only for food and restroom breaks. Yesterday, though, I walked around the neighborhood with my daughter and took in the beautiful spring weather.
While the breeze and the sounds of nature around me inspired me—made me pause and give thanks to the universe—the constant thoughts of to-do lists, future worries, and everything else kept intruding.
Even now, there are things I want to say and celebrate, but there’s just too much noise.
I once wrote a poem about this—this constant cycle of thoughts—but if I go looking for it, I know I’ll fall into a rabbit hole and forget what I was searching for in the first place.
These are the things, by the way, that go on in a creative ADHD brain:
the need for an outlet,
the need for background noise,
but also the craving for silence.
The jealousy of being able to sit still.
Closing this post to say:
one more down, 49 more to go.